Wednesday, May 17, 2017

May 17, 2017: Weird, Random, or Whatever... Just Be Yourself

When I am quiet people wonder if I am about to do something harmful to myself (ummm.... nope- never!). When I am weird, people wonder if I am doing things to get attention. When I am random people scratch their heads and look sideways at me. When I am who I am- which is all of the above at various times of the day- I am in my element, so to speak. I am genuine and that, my friends, is something MOST people cannot accept, acknowledge, or understand.

I am transparent. I am cautious. I am loving. I break out in song at a moments notice. I wear costumes and can really rock a tutu. I move my feet, hips, and body, to the beat of any tune currently playing in my head. I feel with my heart and wear it on my sleeve. I have a very (and I do mean very) vivid imagination. I am sensual and can be provocatively sexual (but not in a whore-ish way) I know... oh bummer! I am animated. If I tell you I love you I absolutely mean it, wholeheartedly, and unabashedly. I believe in 2 way relationships (give and take). If you abuse me by ignoring me and then only wanting to communicate on your terms then I will simply, and without reservation, exit the relationship.This applies to both friends and family and even "framily".

I have learned to be alone. I am not afraid of it yet it sometimes scares the crap out of me. I have learned to walk away from people who create unnecessary drama and chaos. I have learned not to depend on people. Not because they are incapable, or I am intolerant, but more so because I know that having expectations of people, and then being let down, hurts. I have built walls around myself at times because they help me to heal. Truly beautiful people see the walls and take them down, piece by piece, and let me continue to be myself- weird, quiet, random, transparent, cautious, loving, sensual, sexual, vivid, animated, curious, and adventurous.

Today I was reminded that G-d has given us free will. We can do what we like. He will always and forever LOVE us. He asks of us to return the favor. We are not perfect and He understands this. However, we can do our best in this life and hope for a better life to come (no, I don't believe we are just worm food after we die). 

It is our own limitations, expectations, inhibitions, and judgements that determine our life, death, and/or hereafter fate. We decide how our journey goes. We live... and keep on keeping on. We strive for what is good, what is better, what makes us better. We strive to love and be loved. We strive to make a difference in our world one day at a time. Well, at least I do.

So be weird, my friends. Be random. Make some noise and raise the roof. Drink the wine and eat the cake. Be loving to those who will accept your embrace. Feel with passion and be compassionate.
This is a rough world to live in but it doesn't have to be all the time. Eleanor Roosevelt said "The only person who can make you feel inferior is yourself". She was right, you know. Chin up... eyes forward... get out there and live. Don't hold back. 
If you love someone tell them now. You may never get another chance. If you want to learn a language, a skill, or take off some weight- set a goal and just try. If you put one foot in front of the other soon you'll be walking across the floor and before you know it.... it might just lead you to walk out the door and into a great new beginning. What are you waiting for!!!??????

The Guided Wanderer

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